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Progress, finally!

November 19, 2015

It’s been 2,5 months since my last post and I’m glad to say I have made progress! I’m at 59,3 kg now and not planning to lose any weight any more, only gaining more muscle and firming the mid section.

I had my monthly appointment with the physiotherapist and she stated my progress also. My mid section is much stronger, my belly is smaller and generally my posture has improved a lot.

From August I have lost 6 cm in my waistline.

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How I got here? By sticking most days to the low carb and low calory diet (ok, weekends excluded) and training 3 times a week. Once a week I attend a pilates class, once a week I have gone jogging (only 3 km but anyway) and once a week we have a one hour circuit training class with personal trainer at my work place (really really efficient and rewarding!). I’ve also tried to do my physio exercises a couple of times during the week but not so often lately, need to put more effort there.

Despite the good progress with diastasis I also have had some issues with endo lately.. I visited my gynecologist and she sent me further to specialized hospital for more detailed exams after Christmas. They are probably going to do an MRI scan to see if my bowel is attached to other tissue due to the symptoms I’ve had (pain on the left side of my belly and constipation all the time). I really hope there’s no need for surgery but at the same time I’m so sick of the never ending endo struggle.


Fat skinny person

September 3, 2015

I had a meeting with personal trainer at my worrkplace where she also made a body analysis with a machine. The results were a bit surprising, even though I knew I have fat in my mid section. Turns out I have 3kg (6.6 pounds) excess fat I need to get rid of, most of it situated in my torso area. Generally, too much fat and too little muscle. At the same time I shouldn’t lose weight but gain more muscle instead on my midsection and arms. And I should definitely exercise more, the minimum is 2 times a week. My waist-hips ratio was also over the limit, but there I blame DR mostly.

So even though I have always thought I’m eating more healthy than most of the people I have been building up a circle of fat around my waist with all the ice-cream, chocolate and candy feasts I used to have almost every evening while winding down from work and slouching on the sofa. But I’m determined to get rid of it.

I’m currently at 61,8 kg and my calories limit per day has dropped to 1100 according my calory calculator I’m using, and it is really really low. I can’t eat anything.

My menu today:

Breakfast 8.00

  • Teaspoon of linen seeds with 3 table spoons of sugar free blueberry soup
  • 1 boiled egg
  • 2 slices of rye bread with margarin, thin turkey cutlet and salad
  • Cup of coffee with skimmed milk

Snack 10.30

  • Three slices of cantaloupe

Lunch 12.30

  • Half a plate of chicken/broccoli/eggnoodle wok
  • Half a plate of salad with low fat cottage cheese and apple

Snack 16.00

  • 1 small banana
  • 1 slice of rye bread with margarin and thin turkey cutlet

Dinner 17.15

  • Chinese chicken soup (chicken breast, ginger, carrot, mushrooms, egg)
  • Cup of coffee with skimmed milk, half a digestive biscuit

And that’s it for today, I’ve already exceeded my limits…

With my progress with DR I’m getting a bit frustrated. I’m really not seeing the results I would like to see, but I know I should do more of the exercises too. All images below taken first thing in the morning, core muscles relaxed. These were taken one week ago at 24.8.

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August 16, 2015

It’s been 3 weeks of diet so far and I’m at 62,1kg, so I’ve managed to drop 2,3 kg (5lb 1.1oz)! Of course the weight has shifted up and down and on the lowest point I got to 61,3 kg, only to have it at 63,3 kg two days later (then I was ready to quit the whole project).

Ditching sugar hasn’t been as difficult I had anticipated. Ice-cream is my cryptonite, I could eat the whole box in one setting. I have followed my diet quite well, only occasional odysseys to the lure of white bread, potatoes and rice (sushi!). The rule of not eating after 7 PM had to be loosened though, as sometimes it’s impossible to have dinner before 20 in this circus.

Although my belly looks smaller in pics below compared to previous ones, with my diastasis recti I don’t see too much improvement yet. I’m having an appointment with my physiotherapist tomorrow and I hope she can give me good advice on what to eat and how to exercise more. I signed in for a pilates class and I need to know if there are some exercises I should skip because of DR.

I was looking at my pregnancy photos for my firstborn and even there at weeks as early as 6 and 7 my belly looked pretty much like it’s looking now. I’m starting to question if I could have had DR already before the kids? At least I’ve always had really poor posture that could be seen in those photos too. My back has really strong lordosis resulting in pelvic tilt which makes the DR effect much worse.

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All pics taken first thing in the morning with core muscles relaxed.



October 16, 2008

Somebody tell me how I’ll kick my candy addiction? Yesterday I HAD to go to the video rental and buy an enormous bag of candy. I just couldn’t stop myself. I swear sugar is like heroin to me. I get so bad crawings some times I could crawl 10 km in pouring rain just to get a Mars bar. I’d probably even sell a relative to get some. Chocolate and liquorice are my worst weak spots.

I quit smoking 2,5 years ago and it was nothing like this. I never smoked a lot during the week, but usually when partying I smoked a pack in one evening. After quitting I’ve only slipped twice, and didn’t even like the taste anymore and I don’t miss my Barclay’s at all. Ok sometimes if a person smoking passes me in the street the scent of cigarette smoke can smell a bit temptating but the craving passes instantly.  I’m so happy about the new legislation that prohibits smoking in most restaurants, bars and nightclubs, because now my clothes won’t smell like a chimney after a night out.

But candy, it wins all my efforts to stay on the decent endo-friendly low-sugared path. My flesh is so weak!


A better day

September 26, 2008

Yesterday’s hormonal storm seems to be calming down. Luckily. I hate those days when I feel like a bag of emotional toxic waste and can’t control my feelings at all. Like yesterday while riding the bus to my graphic’s class, I had to fight with all my mental power the tears not to come. And I want to apologize to that trainee at Subway’s, I’m sorry I snapped at you because you tried to put tomatoes on my chicken teriaki sandwich when I had told you I didn’t want any. But that’s what infertile pms-bitches are like. Last two cycles were much better regarding the mood swings. Last month I didn’t have any of this shit.

I still have the cramps and I’m just waiting for AF to arrive but I’m feeling much better mentally. Ok, we didn’t succeed on the first round but we’ll move on to the next one. And maybe with some hormonal enhancements this time. I think the problem might be with implantation (either that or the fertilization), because I’m sure the ovulation part is working fine. So I’ll ask the doc could we add progesteron to the game since it should help the implantation process.

Yesterday’s graphic’s class was so therapeutic. Just what I needed; during those three hours I didn’t think about ttc for a second. I’ll post my new work as soon as I get it scanned!

I’m so glad it’s friday today and I have the weekend ahead of me. Today I’ll go see The other Boleyn girl with my cousin after work. It’s her first time out on her own after her son (my goodson) was born in April. Tomorrow one of our friends has a graduation party and I’m sure it’ll be a lot of fun :D! And we’ll also continue the filming of our horror movie tomorrow morning.

What comes to my endo-diet, I’ve slipped quite badly during the last few weeks. We’ve got a video rental place next to our workplace and you can buy candy pick’n’mix styled there. Needless to say, I’m a regular customer. Now that I started to think about it, maybe bringing chocolate back as a regular to my diet is causing the moodswings! Could it be?

And I’ll POAS tomorrow morning if AF hasn’t arrived before it. Just to make sure I can have my ciders with a peaceful mind.

Have a good weekend everyone, I’m gonna enjoy mine :)!


Total Awesomeness!

August 4, 2008

We went to see Kung Fu Panda on Friday after work. It was a totally awesome movie. Hilarious, entertaining, pretty cg eye-candy with good voice-acting. I ❤ Jack Black. It was definetely his movie.

Before the film there were commercials as usual, and during one phone operator spot I almost burst into hormonal tears; it was about a nerdy little boy going to school for the first day and his mother taking him there. Of course I started thinking if I’ll ever get to take my child to school and wait for them anxiously to come home. And then I started to think what if I’ll finally get pregnant and we’ll get a girl and I’ll pass on all this endometriosis shit to her and she’ll have all these problems aswell? Luckily the movie was so good it took my faul mood away. The PMS-hormone attacks are a true bitch. One time pmsing I even cried when  Paul Potts was singing on the telly. Seriously. That’s sick.

After the movie we went to eat in a Greek restaurant and during a 5 minutes time I saw 3 pregnant women parading by the window rubbing their bellies. Couldn’t there be a law that pregnant women should stay at home or with their giant bellies?

The trip to Naantali was great even though the weather wasn’t. I’ll post some photos later. The villa was cosy and in the middle of the pretty old town. I envy the people who get to live there on a regular basis. We popped the champagne (though we are so ignorant we couldn’t really taste the difference to a chepaer bubbly) and had strawberries and chocolate with it and gave each other presents. I quess not quite the traditional wedding anniversary gifts but then again we are not the most traditional people either. My husband told me beforehand that he had picked a gift that he was sure would make me laugh. And of course I bursted into spontaneus laughter after opening the wrapping and seeing this:

The best gift really! I’ve been missing Brenda & Co so much these years 😀 We already watched the first episode yesterday. As we are games/movies/entertainment-junkies, my gift to my Husband was in a digital disc aswell.  We tried out some zombie-whacking yesterday evening, quite much fun!

On the Saturday evening we dined in a fancy restaurant and I slipped from my diet with the half a bottle of champagne, half a bottle of chardonnay, white bread, chocolate and the delicious panna cotta I had for dessert. You could say we truly enjoy eating. It was a great evening. I love my husband. And food. But now I’m back to my regime. Swear.

This morning while walking to the bus stop through the forest the weather felt so autumny. I love autumn but couldn’t we get more of summer than 2 days this year? The climate change messes everything up. No real summers anymore, no real winters with snow. Only gray, rainy days.

It’s CD24, temp was 36.9C this morning. Heavy cramps, massive back pain yesterday. I predict AF for this afternoon.

Just noticed that my sneakers smell like cat’s pee. Thanks guys.



July 25, 2008

I’m a total sucker for New Age (especially tarot…) and I visit Worldoffroud-oracle almost daily, although I know it’s not “real” tarot. The deck is however one of my favorites and I have it at home too. Today’s card made me feel quite good 🙂

Starter Reading: Iris tells us that light is breaking through our present darkness, and that hope is a powerful factor in speeding up this process. She does not promise us that the storm is over, nor does she say that it will never storm again, but she does say that there is brightness and beauty here. She also tells us that there is something to be gained by this passage through the storm. And the sooner we learn what it is, the sooner the storm will end. Always, a passage through the storm is a time of potential growth, a time to allow the deadwood of our past to be blown away to make room for the green shoots of new growth. At this point, it is useful to ask ourselves what we still need to release and to look after protecting and nurturing the seeds we have planted. Iris suggests that the cultivation of patience may also be helpful at this time. The storm is breaking up. Are we ready for the change? If we are presently frogs, the faeries say, the time of our transformation, foretold by the rainbow, may be at hand. Then we shall be kissed by the puissant light of the sun–and discover if we are still frogs or if we have become something much more.”

Today we’re driving 3,5 hours to Pori after work, my husband’s other band has a gig there. Going there is quite nostalgic these days; it is the town where we studied for our Bachelor’s degrees, made a lot of friends and had the time of our lives.  Me and my husband met in 2001 when we started our studies there at the same class for Media and communications but it was only until 2004 that we started dating.  I met also three of my closest friends there, made two photo exhibitions and several short movies and other great projects with them. My husband is now a cameraman shooting and editing mostly news for two major Finnish channels as a freelancer, I’m a Graphic Designer/Pre-press operator in a cd/dvd production company. But I dream about that flower shop anyway 🙂

It’s cd 14 today, hoping for ovulation in a few days but we’ll see, no signs yet. I’ve learned now that I get the sore nipples already a few days before ovulation, not afterwards like I first thought. I guess it has to do with the rise of Estradiol. Yesterday I got a quite dark line on the OPK but not as dark as the control line. I do get visible lines throughout the cycle, interpreting them is somewhat interesting…

About the diet: Only a little chocolate at the movies (because I was really hungry and had to eat something.. Ok lame excuse!) but no other candies/ice-cream/cakes so far! Two ciders and a glass of sparkling wine on Wednesday and one cider yesterday at a heavy metal gig. Though I know that tonight there will be some drinking as we see our friends after a long time… No rice, potatoes or pasta, only salads, fruits and fish/chicken. No white bread, only the dark Finnish rye bread, which is actually quite good when you learn to like it. Only one cup of coffee every morning, none in the afternoon. Maybe I can do this 🙂