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Fourth time lucky?

December 15, 2008

So it was, IUI#4 today. I had still peak positive OPK this morning and my temp was only 36.2C so we decided it wasn’t too late and made us an appointment. Everything was “suberb” again according to my RE; my lining (8.9mm), the timing, the sperm count (8 million) and motility (97% after the wash)… She said that’s there’s no reason we shouldn’t get pregnant. I just don’t believe in it anymore. The catheter hurt a little this time and in the afternoon I had some spotting. this has happened never before.

This time I ovulated from the left side, glad to see that side working too since 3 times in a row it was the right ovary popping the eggies! There was a big follicle on the right side too, but the one one the left was bigger and had already burst. I secretly wish that the right side will release an egg too, although I don’t know if that’s even possible.

After the iui I had an acupuncture appointment with a new acupuncturist; this time a Finnish old lady who looked like mrs. Santa Claus 🙂 A symphatetic old hippie, I loved her! She’s also a gynecologist and specializes in treating infertility with acupuncture. The treatment she gave was super relaxing, I would like to see her again if I have money for that. It’s very uncertain will we receive our paychecks now after the bankruptcy…

The little gremlins are doing everything forbidden; hanging from the curtains, hanging from the laundry that’s drying, eating our plants and stealing our socks from the bedroom. So adorable 🙂


Countdown to IUI starts today!

September 2, 2008

Yep, it’s CD1. Had the shortest cycle ever. As I O’d already on cd13, this cycle was only 25 days long. And AF totally caught me surprise, which is RARE for anyone with endo. Usually it’s bad, BAD and worse cramps a whole week before AF’s dear visit but this time I only had mild back pain. I thank the acupuncture for this.

CD1 means IUI in two weeks if everything goes normally! Woohoo! Things are rolling! Tomorrow before returning to work from holiday’s I’ll go do my CD2 bloodwork and make an appointment for the u/s around CD9-11. My guess is we’ll have IUI on Friday 12th September or Monday the 15th as our clinic isn’t open on weekends. I just hope I won’t O on Sunday then.

About the trip. It was awesome. I can’t really describe Lapland. It’s Finland but at the same time it feels like a completely different world. The sceneries are beautiful in a bare way; nothing much really grows there and you mostly see rugged fells, crystal clear lakes and the sky. It feels like the sky is much closer to you there because the only trees that grow there are small fell birches. I love the place. It’s magical. My father’s mother was born in Lapland and even though she has lived most of her adult life in southern Finland I’ve always felt that Lapland still is very important to her and visiting the place is a way of honoring my roots. She is 91 years old and a really tough cookie.

We left Helsinki on Wednesday morning and drove some 8 hours (well DH drove, I kept company) via west coast and towns Vaasa and Kokkola to Oulu to my friends place where we spent the night.

Next morning I went to a clinic to do my CD21 bloodwork and then I drove most of the time until Kilpisjärvi. Up north driving is fun; no other cars around, only occasional reindeers and an open road with breathtaking sceneries around you. For the last 100km I was grinning like an idiot; the sun was shining and the landscape grew more and more beautiful each passing kilometer. When we got to Kilpisjärvi it was 5PM and we immediately left for the 11km hike.

Our beloved Fiat (piece of shit, really)

Our beloved Fiat (piece of shit, really)

The brave hikers ready for take off

The brave hikers ready for take off

I was so happy to be there again. I walked the same trail 6 years ago with my ex (geek who dumped me to get a more obedient and easy-going girlfriend but that’s another story) and all these years I’ve waited to go back. As we left so late there were no other hikers around. Just us and the vast nature. And silence. I soon noticed though that as 6 years ago I was 20 years old and had the stamina and energy of an 20 year old, now at 26 I felt like an crippled old lady trying to make my way through the rocky hills with my heart racing in my throat. Neverthless, the views were completely worth the pain.

After the last picture the battery of my shitty camera died so I don’t have a visual proof of the rest of the evening. We got to the camping spot around 10PM and noticed that the little cabin there was already full with damn scouts so we had no other option than to sleep in the tent. At the moment the temp was maybe +3C. We cooked some chicken stew with our trek cooker and put all the clothes we had on. Note to self: next time, buy a proper sleeping bag, not a cheap one. During the night the temp crept under 0C and it was really cold. I slept maybe two hours during the whole night. Next morning when I got up I felt like someone had beated me thorougly with a baseball bat. We decided that one night playing the survivors was enough and called a cabin rental place and reserved accommodation for the following two nights in a lodge with our own sauna. We visited the place where Finland’s, Sweden’s and Norway’s borders cross and I’m sorry I don’t have a picture from there, it’s a really beautiful spot by the lake with mountains around. Then we packed our things again and started the hike back. Those 11 km were quite painful, my left shoulder was really hurting because of carrying the backpack and I felt the flu creeping back on me. But the thought of a warm sauna kept us going.

We got finally to the lodge and it was much better than what we had hoped for. Our own sauna, a huge kitchen, bedroom upstairs and even a tv to watch the new season of Finnish Big Brother! That’s me chilling after the sauna, feeling very happy.

Next morning we headed to Norway by car. Kilpisjärvi is just on the border of Finland and Norway, but already after crossing the border (there are no formalities, you just drive to another country) the sceneries change. Norway has much higher mountains and of course the Arctic Sea.

In the afternoon the sun was shining again and we climbed to the Fell Saana on Finland’s side. I’ve done the climb twice before, first at about 11 years age and again 6 years ago. Needless to say, views were magnificent.

Next morning we bid the place goodbye and drove som 7 hours to Rovaniemi, where we booked us a place on the night train. The ticket for our car costed as much the ticket for both of us together! We also visited Santa Claus’ village and even met the man himself. You weren’t allowed to take your own photos there, but could only buy the overpriced picture they took so I don’t have a picture from there. But meeting Santa was quite exciting 🙂 You all know that he lives in Finland, right? The place was filled with souvenir shops all selling the same expensive shit. Didn’t buy anything. Our train left 9PM and we were back in Helsinki 8.30 next morning. The train was super-modern; we even had our own shower and felt like little astronauts in our small cabin.

Tomorrow back to work (blah!), next weekend Tallinn and maybe IUI soon! I’m crossing my fingers and toes hoping this will work. It’s only 20% chance but somebody has to be that 20%, right?!


Why I don’t love public transport

August 25, 2008

It’s my first day of holiday and we are heading to Lapland on Wednesday morning. The weather is shitty and cold. And of course we both catched the flu while attending an outdoor concert on Friday and now our apartment is full of sneezed papers and empty mugs we’ve been drinking hot black currant juice from. I’m actually feeling much better already but DH doesn’t look so good at the moment snoring on the couch 😦 I visited the acupuncturist today and he put some herbal medicine on my face and forehead when I told him I caught the flu. And it seems to be working. I don’t know which spots he stimulated this time but I was like macaroni after the treatment and been really tired the whole afternoon.

This time he held his practice in a different place than usual and I had to take the metro to city center to see him. I hate the metro, seriously. Well not so much the metro as transportation but the co-travellers I’m forced to share my space with. Every single time there’s a drunk/junkie/crazy person/preacher in the same wagon with me. Every Single Time. The trip from us to the center takes only 12 minutes but it feels like an eternity when you are locked into a tin can with a maniac shouting in your ear. I’d rather take the bus but guess what, there’s no bus lines from us to the center. Hilarious.

During the three years I’ve lived in Helsinki I’ve come to master the behaviour rules of the subway. I’ve learned the empty zombie gaze you’re supposed to put on your face while traveling. See nothing, hear nothing, gaze a spot on the wall and pretend you don’t care about that person next to you reeking of piss, booze and vomit. You are not supposed to look anyone in the eye. But still I like to observe people and if somebody is staring at me I love to take a staring contest. Unless the other contender is a lunatic with a crazy look in their eyes. When I was visiting Paris one time my French (male) friends told me that I’m flirting all the time in the subway. In their eyes just looking at someone normally was flirting. So I tried to learn the universal empty subway gaze.

Finnish people are famous for their silence. Small talk is something we definetely don’t master. If there’s a bus full of commuters who are strangers to each others no one will utter a word even though the travel would take two hours. We definetely enjoy our silence. When I was living in Maastricht and took a bus once I was shocked with the noise the Dutch people were making, was so loud it hurt my ears. I was homesick otherwise too at the moment and so I dreamt about being back to Finland, in a bus with nobody speaking a word. But there’s an exception to this rule of course. If a Finnish person gets a phone call on their cell while on any public form of transport, they are more than happy to share their sex problems/diseases/criminal record loudly on the phone. It’s twisted, I know.

Today was time to enroll to night school courses. I attended metallography (I think art graphics is another term for this) last year after trying to get on that course for two years. There’s one lousy course in the evening in whole Helsinki and they only take 15 people in. I got to the office 30 minutes before the enrollment started and there were already 10 people before me in the queu, mostly old ladies. I filled my registration form and waited anxiously. Finally it was 4.30 PM and they opened the counters. At the same moment I started to dial the number where you also can enroll, but it was busy of course. I heard a boy next to me get through on his cell and he was enrolling to the same course I was going to. My course!!! And he got a place. I was getting so nervous, those old ladies before me talking so slowly, filling their forms with their shaky hands, moving so slowly and the time was running so fast. I tried to call again and again but it was busy all the time. And finally it was my turn at the counter. I threw my paper at the clerk and he was so slow too, hitting the numbers on the keyboard one at a time. A few agonizing moments passed. “You were the last one to get a spot on this course!” He uttered. “YES!” I screamed an ran away. I was so relieved. That course means so much to me, it was one of the main things keeping me sane last year. I love the various phases you have to complete when making a plate, I love the printing with an old press, I love the smell of thick paper and the chemicals. I love how the making of a picture swallows you completely and you have to concentrate so hard on the process you can’t think of anything else during the time you are spending at the course.

All these are etchings with aqua tinta, the last one has lace printed on the plate as well.

Night time

Night time





The bride

The bride

About TTC, now it’s CD18 and 5DPO. I’m trying not to hope too much this cycle but to concentrate on the next one with IUI. DH is going to see the acupuncturist too. So far I’ve had much less cramps this month, hooray for that! Some mild back pain as always this time of the month. I’m going to have my CD21 bloodwork on the way to Lapland, luckily you can do it at any medical centre you choose.

Tomorrow we’ll pack our backpacks ready and then head north. So it’s gonna be silent around here for almost a week.



August 20, 2008

I feel like a train had ran over me and there’s a bruise on my left shoulder. Half of the muscles in my body are hurting. Yep, the first kickboxing workout was yesterday. And it was so much fun :D!! I sweated like a little red pig but like a very happy pig! We’re going again on Sunday.

Had another appointment to the acupuncturist too. This time he put a needle on my head and one on my lower back (and also the needles on my belly as last time). It’s strange how the needles hurt diffrently in different parts. For example the needle on my head didn’t hurt at all where as the on on my lower back hurt so much I had to bite my lip. The next session is on Friday and yet another on next Monday. I’m going to go bankrupt over this.

It’s CD13 and I suspect I’ll be ovulating on CD15 or 16. It’s a good thing that the RE is tomorrow so she can check with the dildocam if I’m really ovulating or not! They can do that, can’t they?

Tonight we’re going to see these girls play! The song is about domestic violence and roughly translated “if you’ll hit me one more time I’ll kill you”.  One of the best current Finnish live bands I’ve seen.


Weekend (and loads of food!) in pictures

August 18, 2008

On Friday I had my first appointment to the chinese acupuncturist. First got some needles on my lower back and few in my legs, then some on my belly and other side of my legs. Relaxing? yes. Expensive? definetely. 68 euros for a 40 minutes session, ouch!!! But I still booked two more sessions for this week, first one is tomorrow.

After the acupuncture I walked home and it was surprisingly warm. In the staircase I was greeted by a very good scent of food coming from our apartment. This is what DH had cooked for us:

Fresh pineapple, zucchini pancakes, apple/nectarine salsa, zucchini with feta cheese, salad with cucumber and pepper, sour cream, mix of parsley, onion and radish, chicken skewers and spicy meatballs. And ice-cream for dessert. Yumm! All this was consumed with a nice bottle of red wine from Chile. We are total food-holics.

Saturday involved eating aswell. We drove to my parents house in the afternoon after first taking our cats to DH’s father in another town. I think I inherited my love for food from my parents, because they love cooking and eating as much as we do.

My parents' house where I grew up

Me and mom cooking. See the matching outfits.

Me and mom cooking. See the matching outfits.

We spent the evening eating and drinking, playing board games and watching awful embarassing home videos where I’m 13 and wearing the worst clothes ever. On Sunday morning I woke up to the scent of bacon that my father was cooking for breakfast. I never cook bacon at home but at my parents’ it’s like a tradition to have it for breakfast. After eating we headed to forest to seek mushrooms, but they were all hiding! We only got a few chanterelles.

After the forest it was time to eat again! This time grilled sausages, pork, zucchini, corn and pineapple.

It’s mid August and it’s so autumny here. I guess it’ll be quite chilly next week in Lapland, now the temps are around +10C there.

rowan tree at my parents' garden

rowan tree in my parents garden

apple tree in my parents garden

I learned this weekend that my mother’s twin sister doesn’t have endo. In fact there was never nothing wrong with her, but her husband. Hearing this felt like 100 kilos off my shoulders; we aren’t a completely barren family after all. Maybe there is hope for me too. We have our first RE appointment finally on Thursday and I hope to be know much more after it.

Now I have to go. Guess where? Cooking of course 😀


As I promised…

August 14, 2008

Here’s a visual of my new RED hair! Not the best pic (nor face) but hey it was taken 7.00 AM before leaving for work.
I managed to book an appointment to the chinese acupuncturist already for tomorrow afternoon! I’m really looking forward to it, because he said on the phone that acupuncture should help with endometriosis. And tomorrow is Friday so no work for two days! That means a movie on dvd, good food and red wine tomorrow with DH, on Saturday a short visit to DH’s dad because we’re leaving our cats there for our holiday (only a week away!!) then drive to my parents and go hunting for mushrooms in the forest (I bought myself red rubber boots yesterday for forest trips). And probably consume massive amounts of great food and some wine too…

As mentioned, I have still some holidays left for this summer (if I didn’t have any holidays, my head would probably explode, not because of a massive workload but because of massive boredom). That is 1,5 weeks, starting on the 25th. We’re going hiking to the northernmost Finland and possibly Norway too. This is a trip I’ve been really waiting for; the incredible sceneries and vast peaceful nature with only a few people around. I’ve been there a couple of times before and it’s breathtaking. I just hope the weather will be nice and we won’t have to freeze our asses in the tent with -5C or pouring rain!