Archive for June, 2009

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Midsummer pics

June 26, 2009

We celebrated midsummer in Finland last weekend. It was freaking cold of course. But the cottage at the island by the sea was awesome. Me and DH stayed in a small sauna cabin just 10 meters from the sea and could hear the waves inside. Very relaxing, as was the whole weekend. Just going to sauna, swimming (the water was ice-cold), eating and chilling. I loved every second of it, even though the weather was cold and windy. There were 2 other preggo ladies (DH’s friend’s wife and DH’s friend’s sister) with me so if I hadn’t been pregnant myself the weekend would have been horrible, continuous stabs in the heart. Even still I really can’t identify myself within the “pregnant” group. And if I share my news with a friend who doesn’t know about our struggles I feel I need to tell them I’ve had if-treatments. I just can’t pretend to have been knocked up “normally”.

But here are some pics from the weekend:

Me in the boat

Me in the boat

Boys barbequing

Boys barbequing

View to the sea

View to the sea

In front of the sauna cabin

In front of the sauna cabin

Me and the sea

Me and the sea

Watching the bonfire

Watching the bonfire

The bonfire closer

The bonfire closer

After last weekend the weather changed totally. Now it’s real summer! This week has been great; for once I’ve been able to do all summerish stuff I’ve always wanted to. First I spent Tuesday with my friend M at the flea market selling our old stuff, me gaining 100 euros. On wednesday me, M and two other friends went to Suomenlinna which is an old fortress in an island just outside Helsinki (very popular with the tourists) and had a picnic (that lasted 4 hours). Today I’m going swimming to an outside pool with a friend and in the afternoon I’ll drive to my parents as tomorrow me and sis will be selling jewelry at a small rock festival near them. This is how summers should always be. I’ve been even able to wear my cute summer dresses 🙂

On Monday I had the first visit at the maternity counseling. They took my blood pressure (which was surprisingly ok, usually I have high figures), Hemoglobin (great 140!) and some pee tests. I was also weighed and so far I’ve only gained one kilo. My nurse was a bit goofy and didn’t understand anything about if-treatments. I also got all kinds of brochures about pregnancy and the list of foods I’m not allowed to eat now like blue cheese, roe and liver.

We had the NT-scan yesterday and everything seemed to be in order. The baby was so stubborn though that he/she didn’t want to have his profile picture taken and turn into right position  so the nurse had hard time measuring the nuchal translucency but somehow succeeded, it was 1.0mm which is fine. He/she measured now 4,7cm and again I was a few days ahead the previous schedule, so now my due date would be 10th January which is actually the due date I should have had originally compared to my treatment schedule.

My face still looks like a disgusting pizza and pretty much all acne medication is a big no-no when you are preggo. The morning sickness is more of evening sickness these days. And my belly gets ridiculously swollen after eating anything; yesterday after having salad I looked 5 months pregnant. I even had to buy myself new capri-pants from the flea market as the ones I had before don’t fit anymore. Today I’m either 11 weeks 2 days or 11 weeks 5 days, depending on which schedule I’m looking.

Next Tuesday we’ll leave for Spain! I reserved an apartment for us so we’ll be living in a real Andalusian house! The only problem is that the proprietor doesn’t really speak English and we don’t speak Spanish. Well, I hope we’ll manage somehow. After the trip I think I’ll come out of the closet and tell all my friends about the baby.

Have a great, sunny weekend everyone 🙂

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10 weeks!

June 17, 2009

I’m already ten weeks today 🙂 I still can’t believe it. I’m nauseous most of the time but haven’t puked after the one time, I have to eat all the time, my face is still covered in acne, I’m a bit moody and my boobs are a little sore. I don’t have a real belly yet, but after eating it get’s really swollen.

I was supposed to have my first maternity counseling appointment on Monday, or at least I thought so. After waiting for 40 minutes I stopped a nurse and asked if it’s common that the appointments are running late. Turned out that the person I was supposed to see was on holiday and my appointment is only at next Monday. GREAT. And nobody cared to tell me when I registered at the reception. Thanks assholes.

I wanted to get my first appointment earlier because we are leaving for Spain soon and I’m anxious about hospital’s timetables for the 11-12 weeks u/s. When I told this to the nurse she dared to say that “you don’t necessarely have to go to the u/s, it’s not compulsory. Or you can do it at a private clinic if there’s a problem with the timetables”. Seriously?! Who would miss the u/s where they measure the swelling of the neck and other important things? Or how would I find magically 200 euros to pay for it at a private clinic since we have no money at the moment after spending everything on making this baby? I knew moving to public healthcare would bring problems and I was right.

We visited my granny at the nursing home last Sunday and I told her that we are having a baby on January. Even though she doesn’t really talk anything anymore she did recognize me and obviously got excited about my news. I was so happy I could share this with her.

Midsummer is next weekend and the weather forecast promises us 13C with thunder and rain. Fuck this Finnish pathetic excuse for a summer, I’m so glad we get to go to Spain so I’ll see at least a little sunshine. We are going to spend the Midsummer at DH’s friend’s cottage at the archipelago by the sea, so nice weather would have been a great bonus but we’ll enjoy barbequing and sauna anyway, no matter the weather.

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Recipe for the mushroom/bacon pie (great for hangover or preggo women)

June 17, 2009

I promised to post the recipe for the pie I baked a while ago. So here it goes, I hope I got the conversions right…

Ground:

100 grams (0.4 cups) margarine/butter

1 tsp baking powder

1/2 tsp salt

3 dl (1.3 cups) wheat flour

0.5 dl (0.2 cups) cold water

Mix flour, salt and baking powder together with soft margarine. Add water and mix until the dough is smooth and tap onto a pie mold.

Filling:

3 eggs

2oo grams (0.4 pounds) grated cheese

3 large champignons or other mushrooms

1 small onion

7o grams (0.2 pounds) bacon

2oo grams (0.4 pounds) pineapple chunks

2oo grams (0.4 pounds) sour cream

1 tsp ground pepper

Fry the bacon, onion and mushrooms on a pan, let cool off for a few minutes. Mix all ingredients together and put on top of the dough. Bake in the oven at 225C (437F) for about 25-30 minutes. Let cool off for 15 minutes before eating. Enjoy 🙂

Unfortunately there’s no picture of the pie because this pregnant eating machine ate it so fast.

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9w2d (with u/s picture)

June 12, 2009

We had the u/s on Wednesday and to my relief everything was in order 🙂 The baby measured now 2,3cm so it was one day ahead compared to my calculations. Now my due date is 13th January 2010. I like the sound of that, number 13 feels lucky to me. Of course I know that most babies aren’t born on the exact due date but I think that would be a cool birthdate. Only that sis and her hubby will be in Vietnam at that time, which sucks. We heard the heartbeat too, it was amazing. It suddenly made this much more concrete.

Now he/she actually looks almost like a real baby (though DH said he looks like a teddy bear :D)! Next u/s will be in a couple of weeks but no more at the infertility clinic. We can move now to the normal pregnancy control!

Yesterday we had our Belgian guests at Helsinki. They are maybe the nicest couple on earth. Though it had been 2 years since we last saw each other, it didn’t matter. We visited the market hall and some shops, went to a nice cafe I found a couple of weeks ago and had lunch at a Mexican restaurant. They have just gotten married and were on a cruise at the Baltic Sea for their honeymoon, continuing to Stockholm the same evening. I wish we can go to see them in Belgium after the baby is born. I would post pictures but I can’t because I look like a swollen pig in all of them and my face is covered in terrible acne.

This evening a friend of mine is having her graduation party. I haven’t told her about the baby yet, but I think I’ll have to do it tonight since I will anyway look suspicious without a drink in my hand. Tomorrow we’ll head to my parents for some barbeque and sauna and on Sunday we’ll visit my grandmother with whom I want to share our news with. The only problem is she’s not doing so great at the moment, and I can’t be sure if she’ll even recognize me. I still want to tell her.

My cousin gave me some baby magazines and we’ve been browsing them with DH. It’s still really hard to relate to the stuff they are writing about, like a comparison of strollers. And I don’t like the attitude of holy super motherhood that is shining through the text. I’m pretty certain I won’t be a supermom who will feed her children only organic food, take them to all kinds of activating hobbies at the age of 3 months, talk endlessly about breastfeeding and baby poop. I’m certain I will be quite a mess of a mother but still confident that we can raise a decent human being.

Now I’m going to be a good little housewife and do the dishes and clean some of this mess up. And then watch the L-word on telly 🙂

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Pregnancy milestone

June 9, 2009

I puked for the first time this morning while brushing my teeth! Yes, I know you were all just dying to hear this enchanting detail 😀 Overall the nausea is almost 24/7 but still manageable if I remember to eat enough. Last Friday as I drove 2 hours to my sister I had a box of grapes and salt crackers on the passenger seat and munched them constantly.

Tomorrow is the next u/s. Although the symptoms are strong I’m still very anxious. All kinds of morbid, bad scenarios have been rolling in my head. I think it’s partly because it is still so difficult to believe that this could actually work for us. DH tries to sneak from his work to the clinic too. I hope this will be our final visit to that expensive place, everything will be fine and we can move on to the public healthcare (that doesn’t cost a penny!).

Last weekend’s visit at the market place wasn’t too profitable, since the average age of people there was around 60. And it was freezing cold. The joy of Finnish summers; +7C in June and I was wearing my autumn jacket and gloves. I hope the weather will change soon, as our Belgian guests are coming on Thursday and I would like them to enjoy sunny Helsinki.

Some pics from the market:

our beautiful market table

our beautiful market table

close-up on the earrings

close-up on the earrings

me, sis and a random old lady on the background

me, sis and a random old lady on the background

We bought a new sofa as the old one dated back to 1960’s and belonged first to my grandparents, then to my parents, then to sis and finally to me. All these years and people had worn it down so it was time to get a new one. We love it, and so do the cats.

The afternoon nap club

The afternoon kitten nap club

I just went to the supermarket to get some bacon. I know, I’m a disgusting person. But I craved some hangover-food, so I used it to bake a pie together with mushrooms, onion, pineapple and cheese. And a lot of butter. To my defense I have to say I haven’t still gained any weight, the little vampire I carry just sucks everything that I eat to her/himself.

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7w6days

June 3, 2009

I’m almost 8 weeks already! That is, if I’m counting correctly. Because of the low initial beta the length of my pregnancy is still a mystery, hopefully one that will be revealed on next week’s u/s. Which of course already makes me anxious, I hope everything will be ok, baby will have grown enough, has a strong heartbeat and we can stop worrying.

I feel nauseous most of the time but I’ve managed to avoid puking yet. I’m craving all fresh stuff like watermelon, grapes and fruit juices, and strangely coffee and chocolate (usually my biggest favorites) don’t sound too tempting at the moment. And I eat all the time but still gain no weight. In the evenings my belly looks bigger but that’s just probably because I’ve stuffed myself with food all day. Overall I have a strange zombie-like feeling, a little tired, headachy, dizzy and nauseous, like all energy would have been sucked out of me. I’m still cramping every now and then but not too bad. Apparently due to endo and lap my insides are quite scarred and the growing uterus makes those scars hurt.

We had some really warm sunny days but now it’s gray again. We are going with sis to sell jewelry on an outside market on Saturday, and the forecast promises rain and cold for the next weekend. They are also holding a sing-along happening on the market place at the same time. Awesome.

Next week we’ll get visitors from Belgium as a friend couple from there is coming for a cruise on Baltic Sea for their honeymoon. Can’t wait to see them, it’s been 2 years from last time already! I got to know them when I was studying in Maastricht and they’ve already visited Finland once after that.

Not much happening here, took the entrance exam for the Master’s programme last week and it was quite challenging. There was an article (in English) about usability and then some difficult questions based on the information. We’ll know in July how it went… Don’t have much work at the moment and the unemployement office hasn’t paid me anything yet either.

I’m still having difficulties to believe I’m actually preggo. Ok, I feel pregnant now but the the thought of us becoming parents for real after all is still too amazing to think too much about. I guess I’m holding my guard up just in case, after the disappointments I’m overly cautious about everything. I don’t want to share the news with everyone yet (and I know from my stats that I have basically 0 hits from Finland so no one I know is reading this), although quite many friends already know.

Our neighbour guessed right away at our 90’s party because I wasn’t drinking the usual way. Apparantely my non-alcoholic ciders weren’t convincing enough to fool him. In Finland it’s basically impossible to keep your pregnancy a secret if you are going to a party/bar/restaurant. Everyone expects you to drink if you have done so before and if you are having only water/coke/coffee it immediately raises questions. Saying “I just don’t feel like drinking today” is no excuse. Because everyone feels like drinking, especially now it’s summer and the terrace bars are open. Even at my cousin’s daughter’s graduation party last weekend I’m sure people wondered why I took my glass from the children’s tray for toasting. Luckily DH followed my example so that might have distracted my nosy relatives because nobody asked anything.

My cousin gave me this amazing present. It’s a silver bola-necklace originally traditionally worn in Bali by pregnant women. There’s a little bell inside the ball that makes a pretty sound when you move and when the baby starts to hear it’ll hear the sound too and recognize it when he/she is born. I know our baby is still too small to hear anything but I wear it anyway since it’s so pretty 🙂

A bola-necklace

A bola-necklace